Anything

I recently finished reading the book, Anything, by Jennie Allen. As I read the book, I wondered...how is it possible for her to know me so well? Since, we've obviously never met. What I realized was that if I believe that the words I write are inspired by God and believe that when she writes, her words are also inspired, then it's not Jennie Allen that knows me so well. It is God.
He is the one who knows exactly what I need to read and hear at any given moment. Because of that truth, I can be confident that the message in Anything is for me. Especially since it goes along with so many of the other messages I've been hearing and reading lately... surrender,  be willing,  give me everything,  I will take you beyond your dreams
If I am willing to pray anything, Lord, anything, I believe great things will happen. If I let him write my story, instead of trying to take the lead, my life will be extraordinary. And, it will glorify him.
Recently, I've written about calling and the constant struggle between fear and faith, which is a part of my journey. I have surrendered. I have made myself empty and opened my hands to be filled by God. Yet, I still feel a little stuck, unwilling to truly say, anything.
I have said yes to a new project. I have sought opportunities to speak and write outside of this space. I have followed the urging of the spirit and pursued friendships, encouraged and invited. But, anything means everything and some days I'm not sure I can do that. As much as I want to.
I think I will try it for one day and then another. Maybe with each small step, my life will gradually become more of what he wants it to be. It seems to be working so far.

Although I've been a christian for over 30 years, I feel as if I'm just beginning to understand what it means to live for Jesus. Prior to this journey, which God started me on two years ago, I was mostly neutral, medium, status quo. I knew Jesus, but was not always passionate about him. I was familiar with God and the Bible and church and they were a part of my life, but I had not lived for them.
I was generally a mediocre christian, with moments of spark and moderate intensity. I wasn't all in, especially when life was hard. When things got tough, I wanted to quit or strive to create my own alternate story, without stopping to ask God what he wanted.
Hebrews 12:12 says, "So take a new grip with your tired hands and strengthen your weak knees." (emphasis added)
Even when we are or have been weary or feeble, God urges us to start again. To push on into victory, so we can experience true freedom. 
Disappointment is not an end, but an opportunity for a divine appointment.  One disappointment, or even more than one, does not mean that all the good works  God ordained for you long before you were born are now impossible, ended, defeated.  There are still many ahead of you, beyond the disappointment. Christine Caine, Undaunted
That is my challenge for me...and for you. Don't stay stuck in disappointment. Start new today. Pray, anything. And, mean it.