I'm Telling You

Today, I need to tell you something that I don't really want to share. Because, once I put it out there I can't take it back. Once I tell you about it, I will be held accountable, to more than just God, my husband and a few trusted writer friends. All of you will know. All of you will expect. That, to me, is scary.

On Tuesday, I wrote about calling. About being in a place where your talents and burdens are brought together to create something beautiful for the glory of God.

I've been doing a lot of self examination lately, much of it encouraged by studying the book Restless, by Jennie Allen. This process has led me to understand that I have many burdens, which stem from my own history, both my highlights and sufferings.

One of my burdens is for women who feel disconnected, who are weary or anxious...because I have been, and some days still feel like, one of those women. Another burden I have is to provide encouragement to those who need it and intercede in prayer for those who may not feel comfortable speaking to God themselves...because I've been there too.

While God has called me to address these burdens in a variety of ways, there is one specific project that I want to share with you today.

"In each day the Lord gives us, let us be consumed with obedient pursuit instead of the perceived victory."

 Angie Smith, What Women Fear

I have spent years feeling afraid.

I have spent months reading about how other godly women have learned to balance fear and faith.

Now, it's time for me to write about how God has used my fear to transform me, in hopes of encouraging other women to take a step towards their own transformation.

A couple of months ago, I was driving to Bible study and God gave me a new vision. It was for a book/devotional project related to my own story of fear and what God's word has to say about it.

If your heart is willing and you want God's glory, and you give him these pieces of your life, something will happen.

Jennie Allen, Restless

So, my goal is to create a 30-day devotional study in the the area of fear and anxiety.

Because I believe that God is calling me to this, I'm going to fix my eyes on Jesus and step out onto the water, knowing that he will be there to catch me if I fall.

What do you think?