What Kind of Bird are You?

My house is full of windows. It's one of the reasons we decided to buy it. There are many large windows, which make the house feel very open.

Most of the windows have some kind of covering, whether blinds or curtains. However, there are a few of the smaller, higher windows that aren't covered.    Several months ago, I was taking a bath in the master bathroom and heard a knocking noise. It wasn't like a person knocking with a fist, but more of a tapping, like the sound a fingernail would make on plastic or glass. It stopped after several seconds.     I forgot about it until a few days later, when I was in the same bathroom, getting ready for work. This time, however, I could see the window, the one high above the bathtub. At the window was a bird, trying to tap it's way in.    We've had birds fly directly into our windows before. In the family room, there are six large windows. On various occasions, I have been sitting on the couch and have been surprised by the sound of a bird flying head-on into our windows. Let's just say, they don't usually fly away unharmed.    Have you ever walked into a window? One of those windows that is so clean that you miss it because there is no hand-print or water-spot evidence that it's there. This wouldn't happen with a door, right? They are not transparent.   The phrase, "you make a better door than a window" is coming to mind. Windows are designed to see through. Doors are designed as barriers. 
So, which type of bird are you?   The bathroom window bird moves cautiously instead of head on. After all, there may be something there he doesn't see. It looks like a clear path, but something is keeping him from flying straight through. Maybe it's a small voice inside his head that's begging him to be cautious.
  In contrast, the family room window bird is reckless, moving without caution. It looks clear, so he trusts his view. Maybe he has the voice too, but he doesn't listen to it. This bird assumes he knows best.  
Instead of a window, wouldn't it make more sense to find a door? Even though you can't see inside, at least you know you can get in through it. Does it take more faith to go through a door? After all, you don't know what is behind it.
Most of the time, I prefer to get a look in the window before I try to get in through a door. I may be the tapping bird for awhile, trying my own ideas, my own way to get in. I may even come back to the window numerous times before I realize that this is not an effective way to get what I want. Fortunately, I have rarely flown recklessly into the window, without listening to my internal voice. But, it has happened.
Jesus said,

“Keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened."

- Matthew 7:7, 8 (NLT)

There have been many times when I have been leery of entering an uncertain time or season in my life. So, instead of knocking boldly, I have tapped at the window. I need to go through the door, but I am afraid because I don't know what will be behind it when it is opened for me.

Are we afraid to knock? Would we rather remain at the window, where we have a small glimpse of what is on the other side, instead of knocking loudly at the door, so that God can open it for us?